Beyond Adoption… Why Are You Here?

Editor’s Note: This guest blog post was submitted by hopeful adoptive mother, Roxanne Rich, who shares an honest look into what they have learned and are still discovering during their adoption journey. With her gracious permission, we have the privilege to feature this raw and transparent piece with you.

Let’s be honest. The road to adoption is exhausting.  

My husband, Auston, and I are still in our “season of waiting” and can tell you firsthand that the ups and downs of this experience can drain you and your marriage. Early in this ever-winding road of trying to grow our family, my husband and I have experienced ill health, pregnancy losses, and large disagreements that could only be resolved after speaking with a professional counselor. We have been poked and prodded by doctors. We’ve been forced to face hard truths about our physical, emotional, and psychological limits. And that all occurred BEFORE we chose to sign on with an adoption agency for the “next path forward”.  

Once you’re officially on the road to adoption a whole new set of questions start circling in your head: When will we be chosen? When will the next situation come through?Does everyone else feel like this? Why weren’t we chosen? Should we rewrite our profile book? What can we do to make ourselves look more appealing, make an expectant mother like us, or help promote our agency so expectant mothers know about them. Why does everyone overlook us? What’s next?. . . 

Your head spins, you lose sight, and finally you scream into the abyss of your brain, “SILENCE! Wait your turn. You’re not the only family on this journey. Have patience and give yourself grace.”

You take a beat. You breathe a bit. And you begin to try to understand why you’re here. Beyond adoption. Beyond growing your family. Why are you HERE? Why are you in this moment? Why are you still waiting when other hopeful adoptive-parents have already been chosen? Why did your adoption become disrupted? Why. Are. You. Here?

Everyone has different “why’s”. While trying to find reasons for our own specific path that we have no idea where it leads, my husband and I have found answers near and far. And fun fact, none of them have to do with expanding our own family.  

EMBRACE THE NOW.  

While you’re here, remember to enjoy the life around you. By not being chosen and by sitting in a house with an empty bedroom, we are forced to embrace our current life. Instead of holding a cooing baby, my husband has time to coach our son’s baseball team. Instead of washing and drying newborn clothes, I have the time after work to volunteer at non-profits like my church and at local theaters. By being told “no” about a future with an expectant mother, we have had the opportunity to look around us and hone in on what makes today and today alone so precious. Once we’re done waiting, we’re not getting these weeks, months, or years back. So let’s live and love in the now and make this time great.  

BUILD A COMMUNITY.  

You may be here so that you have time to reach out to others who are on a similar journey and build a community of those who understand what you’re going through. Creating a support group of friends, family, and strangers who become mentors and friends is so important in the adoption process. You can take notes from those who have already adopted, lean on and pray for those who are in your same phase of waiting, and you can help others to decide if adoption is the right path for them. We’ve all heard that “raising a child takes a village”. Use this time to build yours.  

BE A LIGHT.  

Many of us have fallen into the trap of organizing and reorganizing a nursery. Or staring at our social media posts and profile books wondering what we can tweak to make them better. Hours are spent rewriting, refolding, and preparing for something that is not here yet. What if we took all of that anxiety and pent-up excitement of one day adopting and put it into taking care of others and ensuring they have a great day?

With my brother-in-law deployed, we have used this time of waiting to really lean into helping my sister juggle her two young boys. From random playdates to tagging in at bedtime, we have used our “spare time” to shower the boys with love and help uphold a steady environment where they can thrive. As an added bonus, earlier this summer we chose to put down the grant application we had been stressing over and created a secret text with friends and family to ensure my sister had a great birthday while her husband was deployed. By the time her birthday rolled around the group had created an all-day scavenger hunt full of birthday surprises that ended with all of us at dinner together. Auston & I were able to turn off our brains from the adoption wait for a whole week while ensuring that on my sister’s birthday she felt supported and surrounded by love.  

By being a light during someone else’s challenging time, you help elevate your own happiness and ease the passing of time … even if just for a week.  

BE SOME OTHER FAMILY’S SUPPORT.  

As mentioned before, the adoption process can be a rollercoaster. When a fellow hopeful-adoptive-parent is feeling down with a “woe is me ” or “why not us?” outlook, try to be the sounding board when someone is spiraling. Sit with them, talk with them, and begin to lift them up to help them see a positive angle to why they’re here. By being their shoulder to lean on and offering a hand when they stumble, your understanding of the adoption process and the adoption triad will grow immensely.  

EDUCATE AND ADVOCATE.  

In this God-sent time of waiting, we could use our time here to turn our attention to educating others about adoption and in turn, advocating for all three points of the adoption triad. Education can come through podcasts, books, blogs, etc. My personal favorite is through conversation. Through education, we can better understand an outsider’s confusion, empathize with a fellow hopeful-adoptive-parent, and welcome knowledge being given to us by a birth mother, adoptee, or adoptive parent.  

Finding your reason for being here is not always simple. And truth be told, it doesn’t always give you peace of mind, because some days are just hard. But it helps. By taking a hard look at your reason behind choosing to adopt, you can find the true meaning of why your life story is unfolding the way it is.  

So tell me … Why are you here?

*Post contributed by hopeful adoptive mother, Roxanne Rich